A Crossroads

Midway upon the journey of our life, I found myself within a forest of dark, for the straightforward path had been lost. ~Dante’s Inferno

5 min readAug 23, 2023

Great day!

I hope this post finds you well.

If not, stop what you are doing and smile! You may feel strange, but try it!

I recently came across some writing from earlier this year and thought I would share it here. (It seems a constant in my life; looking back to move forward) Seeing what was going on for me at different points in my life and the headspace I was in at the time helps me notice where I have grown and where growth is still needed. This reflection period and current events in my life encouraged the sharing of this article.

My life has been consistent crossroads for as long as I can remember. Everything was always a ‘no turning back’ decision.
…. and here I Am again.

At another crossroads.

This one seems so different from the others, so naturally, I’m freaking out a bit. What is life if not constant choice and change?
Staying stagnant in any situation, for me, has never worked. Movement and variety are deeply known traditions that autonomously play out at random. Learning to go with the natural flow of my life has been so challenging!

Staring down new paths and opportunities always gives me an adrenaline rush.
Instantly, my mind starts moving a mile a minute coming up with all of the possibilities and options for each choice, checking the pros and cons and doing research to get to know as much as I can about my options to try and determine the best possible choice for my family and I.

What I have found though, is that no matter how much I try to research, there are always things I miss. No matter how much I try to plan, so many things can happen that the ‘plans’ remain loosely intact, at best, or if at all. Every idea I had for how things would work, for better or worse, what actually ends up happening, may never have been a part of my plans.

Sometimes I Am blessed beyond belief, and even the best things I imagined happening happened better. Just as I have been sadly mistaken and the worst-case scenarios I planned for, ended up worse than I could have ever imagined.
Things have gone according to plan, yes… but often the off-beat things seem to stick out a bit more.

I’m still here (sometimes it seems like barely) but what is life if not an adventure and a learning experience?!

What has helped; is learning to slow down and go with the flow. Which for me, was a lot easier said than done!

I like to have some kind of idea of what is going on in my life and around me but be it pleasantly or tragically surprised, I don’t always get the opportunity!

Taking time to myself to work out my thoughts and let what needs to come in has helped. Nature also has a way of soothing and comforting me when I’m trying to unwind.

Fyi: The initial post below, was originally shared on my tumblr account.
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▪️ A Crossroads ▪️

A Crossroads.. A place we’ve all been ~ many times. A place that can hold good memories or hard ones.

Are most Crossroads meant to be A challenged choice.. Ultimatum-esque events.. A forced decision..

Choose.

Do.

Act.

Or Else…..

Can we come to a Crossroads with ease..

Or do they only present themselves when far too much time has been spent on wasted objectives..

Coming into our lives — as the red cape of the Matador. To Raise the Attention of the Bull — who was simply minding his own..

It’s Time.

Now’s the Chance.

Life…

or something…

is calling you.. vying for your attention. Demanding It..

Despite your best efforts to deny It.. stave It off.. distract yourself..

Something

from deep inside you requires — implores you to look at It..
Again.
And Again.
And Again.

Until you See It…

Truly

See It.

It requires so much of you.. But internally — you know you need It. Your Sole Sustenance relies on It. Opportunity piques your interest.. There’s got to be a reason for all this.

Taking time to feel the Earth supporting you
Fresh air to fill your lungs
A Power from Within warming you
Water; to sustain you, cleanse you, cry with you and carry you when you’re weary.

Feeling your heartbeat sync with her songs.

You’re Ready.
Run.

As you do..
You close your eyes.. put your head down..
Slowly.
Breathe in the scents of what has been taunting you.
To learn It.
To feel It.
To know It. To Be It.

Run.

You do..
Full Force at what has been begging for & nagging at your Attention for All of this Time. Unsure fully of what awaits you…
You’re All In.
On the Journey you may feel or be alone.
But you’re Safe.

Take your Heart with you Darling.
Fate would surely Love to meet you.

In the distance.. You can finally start to See.
Still distant — you’re gaining momentum — what you’re after appears to be heading for you as well.
Continuing as you are, you will crash..
head-on..
into It.

No turning back.
You continue..
Your life is waiting for you.

~Osian~
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